Babies EVERYWHERE!

I will start off by apologizing for this post maybe not being as positive as usual, but it is the truth and sometimes the truth hurts.

I dont know what it is, but there seems to be a boom of babies here lately!  Maybe it is one of our childhood friends having their second baby girl on Friday, or another from highschool announcing she is pregnant after having twins the same month I had Lana, or another having their second unplanned, or a girl I cheered with announcing her second while her son and Lana are 2 days apart, or maybe another due next month when her son and Lana are 1 day apart, or maybe the baby shower for a great friend's little boy coming up, or another on bed rest that I have talked to that hates being pregnant, or another from highschool announcing their third child and not even understanding how far along they are or having been to the doctor, or another just having their second and announcing it before they have even been to the doctor, or a wonderful co-worker out on maternity leave, or two more due this summer.  Whatever it is, there are babies everywhere!    

I feel like I could go on and on with this.  It is hard, I am not going to lie.  I have several really great friends, that would be amazing parents that are trying right now and still waiting on their blessing.    You see, most of those above have had the "oops I'm pregnant, now should we get married".  I just don't understand sometimes.  I mean I can almost understand one "oops" .  But two?!  Come on,  seriously after the first you would think they would know how it works!  Why does it seem that the ones that dont "get it" have no problems having babies and the ones that do are the ones struggling.  It just does not seem fair.

There is no way they can know or understand the patience that comes with waiting month after month after month.  These friends that are waiting are amazing people, have real jobs, are married, have a home, and an amazing amount of love they are just waiting to share. I am thankful for these truly amazing friends that "get it".  They will understand how special a child is, they will not take for granted each and every moment, they will not be bothered by waking at 2:00 am, they will want to stay awake just to hold and watch their baby sleep, they will not want to have a babysitter just so they can go party and be relieved of being parents (although I may have to convince them to go to dinner everynow and then so I can watch them!)  They will understand that being a mom or dad is the greatest responsibility and that there is nothing else they would rather do.  I am sure of these things and I know they will be rewared for their committment to each other as husband and wife and for their patience. 

And in all this, I have baby fever bad too!  I know I have one amazing blessing and the day she came into this world was the best day of my life.  She makes the sun shine and stars brighter.  She is perfect.  I know she will be the perfect big sister too one day.  You see it is hard to even try for another baby right now because I have chosen to give her the best food possibe.  I know I am making the right choice by nursing her and will just hope my body will start working normal once I stop.  I know there is the perfect little brother or sister out there for Lana and they will come into our life in God's time.  Lana is the child we prayed for, longed for, and waited for.  She is the one we are meant to have.  God has placed her in our life and it was in His time.  Of this, I am sure. I am reminded again of the song Firm Foundation. 

Firm Foundation
Jesus, you're my firm foundation
I know I can stand secure

Jesus, you're my firm foundation
I put my hope in your holy word
I put my hope in your holy word


I have a living hope ( I have a living hope )
I have a future ( I have a future )
God has a plan for me ( God has a plan for me )
Of this I'm sure, of this I'm sure


Your word is faithful ( You're word is faithful )
Mighty in power ( Mighty in power )
God will deliver me ( God will deliver me )
Of this I'm sure, of this I'm sure