Mother's Day

It was my 1st Mother's Day and it was so special!  Lana and I started the day with blueberry waffels followed by lots of play time.  When Jayson got up, he went and got my present from Lana.  I got a Itunes gift card, new phone case, and the sweetest card.  It was perfect.  We took it pretty easy all day and went to my parents for dinner.  I got another super special present...Lana painted me 4 pictures.  Mom framed one for me and I have to say they are the most beautiful artwork I have EVER seen!  I mean they are so perfect.  She may give her Grandma Judy a run for her money.  Uncle Jeff thinks she is better than Picasso and I agree.  I brought one of them to my office and have it hanging for everyone to see.  I would say that I love this girl more than life itself, but she is life.  She makes this world worth living in.  I wake-up every day for her and the hope for her future.  Being a mom is something you can't describe.  I have always appreciated my mom, but until I had Lana, it was different.  It is only now that I can fully understand her love for me and my brother.  It is amazing and amazing as it is I will never forget those that are waiting to be mom's.  I remember the pain that many feel on this day and my heart hurts for you. As happy as I am today - I will never forget the sadness I once had.    

Lana- I dreamed since I was a little girl of one day being a mother and wondered what my children would be like. Of everything in my life, there has only been two things that I am sure of.  One, is that your Daddy is the perfect one for me.  Two, is that I was meant to be a mom.  We waited and prayed for you, I wondered if I would ever get the chance to hold our baby. I will never forget how excited I was the 9 months you were in my belly. Every day I prayed for you and thought about you and wondered what you would be like. I would listen to your heartbeat in my belly and just be in pure awe that you were growing my tummy.  I never imagined in my wildest dreams that I would have a little girl as beautiful and precious as you are. I love your sweet smile and your precious personality. I love seeing you light up when you see people that love you. I love every day watching you grow and discover new things. I feel like I finally found my purpose in life - to be your mother and to guide you and shape you into the woman you will become. I pray every day that God will use you in AMAZING ways. I want so much for you. But most of all I want you to know that you have a mother who loves you so much. I would do anything for you. I never knew how much I could love someone until you came into my life. I will never, ever, ever get over the blessing it is to be your mother and I don't take a minute of it for granted.

Love, Mommy