Here is how your birth went. The day before, we wanted to spend some good time with Lana since we knew it would be a couple days before I would feel like it again. We played in her pool and had burgers at Maw's and Pa-pa's. We had to be at the hospital at 5:30 am and Donna came over to stay with your sister until she woke up. I had my IV and we were ready to go by about 6:30. Daddy had to stay back in the room while they got me ready in the OR with my spinal. I really did not like being by myself back there without him. By the time he got back to the OR, I was having a hard time breathing. Your daddy calmed me down and kept telling me everything was going to be okay. After just a few more minutest you were here! They weighed you and daddy got to hold you before taking you to the nursery to be cleaned up. Everyone was waiting for you at the nursery window. I had to wait just a little bit longer to hold you while they checked you out, but everyone kept saying that you were perfect and doing great. We are so in love with you and you make the perfect addition to our family!
Your jaundice levels were pretty high so you had to stay under the lights for 4 days. You did not seem to mind though and were so content the whole time in the hospital.
If there is a heaven, then someday when I cross over there, I'd like to think my moment of entrance will be experiencing again those precious minutes when I became a mother. To do it again--to transform from wanting, hoping, and trying to imagine what it's going to be like to actually experiencing it--reaching out my arms to cradle her perfect body, pulling her in to kiss newborn skin, feeling this gutteral lurch of a new love I couldn't quite explain--I'd go back a trillion times to feel it again if I could. I'd take the pain, the pushing, all of it just to remember again what it was like to be changed so instantly. To be overwhelmed by love in that way.
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